BLOGS

Date: 2025.08.05.
Day: 217
Moon: Waxing Gibbous

I apologize for often writing sad things. I thought everything would continue to be fine, but in reality, I continued to be overwhelmed by failure and hopelessness. No matter how hard I tried, and no matter how many job applications I sent out, I continued to be rejected. Rejection after rejection... I can't even find a decent job. On top of that, I still have debts at university that I have to pay off and internet courses that I hate, which won't give me a diploma because all these courses are a scam, just like the fortune tellers on TV in the 90s. (thanks mom and dad for giving me this stupid shit that I've never asked). In general, this summer was terrible for me. Sometimes I just wanted to end the pain, but I couldn't bring myself to do it because I was scared...
I'll keep fighting as best I can. I have to find happiness in this cruel world...