BLOGS

Date: 2025.08.03.
Day: 215
Moon: Waxing Crescent

Today I had a fight with my parents. More exactly, they yelled at me. It happened because a 22-year-old 'slacker' can't find a job. They yelled, got angry at me, and I didn't know what to say, afraid to say anything because they might break my laptop or phone. On top of that, they took my shaking and fear as an excuse and thought I was weak. Men shouldn't cry, they should be strong. Men shouldn't be soft, they should be fearless. In the end, when my parents left, I cried, trying to calm down somehow. But the thought that if I don't find a job, I'll be sent either to the army or far away from home, causes a feeling of fear and hopelessness... I don't want to lose my freedom... I'm really trying to do everything... So why do they continue to think that I'm lazy?
Sorry for posting several sad posts. I'm really trying to do my best...